Worst Week Of My Life…

So unfortunately last week I had to make the hardest decision of my life. I had to decide it was time to say goodbye to my hedgehog Tyrion. He unfortunately had cancer and a bad bleed in his little tummy.

Tyrion had been with me through a lot of hard times. Having anxiety and sometimes doubting myself and the things I create or do made it hard to want to get out of bed or even face the world sometimes. Having Tyrion made it better and being his mommy made me feel like I was doing something right because I had him to count on me. When I was feeling down about myself or things I tried to do, I would take him out of his cage and cuddle with him and he would lay in my hair and give me little kisses and somehow I would feel a lot better.

I didn’t expect my hedgehog to die. It wasn’t something that was prolonged or drawn out. I thought he would get some medicine, he would go home and we would all be okay… unfortunately that was not the case and I was the biggest mess inside that Veterinary Hospital. He was only 2 and life was very unfair to me and him.

I try my best to be positive about the situation. He is no longer suffering and I gave him the best life he could have had. I was very proud to be his mom, especially when people anywhere, but mostly the vet’s office would gasp and coo at him saying he was so friendly and they had never experienced a hedgehog that way. I try my best to think of the good times and all the times we had together. It is hard not to talk to him anymore or to have to take care of something.

It also didn’t help that my vet bill was ridiculous. So in the ache of my snotty nose and tear filled agony, I also went mega broke. My anxiety is now up two fold because I no longer have the pet I had raised and cared for and my credit cards are through the roof. On top of all this I also get to go to work, school, and placement. Which did I mention I didn’t go to work that ENTIRE WEEK? Oh yeah, cause I wasn’t about to bawl in the middle of a lunch rush so… that was a no go. My mental health was a hell of a lot more important than my job at that point… and thankfully they were all understanding.

So where does this leave me? I am incredibly lonely, sad, and pretty fricken broke. A lot of people, including my vet, said that time heals and it will hurt for a while and I may not want another pet for a long time. The mourning and grief and hearing the “I’m sorry’s” are always the hardest but eventually they will get better.. or so I am told.

After all this there is a happy ending to this story, kinda. The other night I was looking through a buy and sell group I am a part of on my Facebook because I was bored mostly.. and I stumbled upon a little baby hedgehog, just a month old. Now I know a lot of people will tell me I should have patience and wait a little longer but I felt that seeing this little baby was a sign. I know Tyrion would want me to be happy and I have a lot (I mean A LOT) of love to give to another quill baby. So despite all my misery and sadness, I get to be a hedgehog mommy once again.

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I will never ever forget Tyrion but I think this is a good way to settle my own grief and handle my own loss. This is not a replacement but just another hedgehog to care for and love and I am glad Tyrion taught me so many things about being a hedgehog mom because this will make me an even better mom this time around.

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Rest in peace Mister Tyrion, I love you ❤ xox

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Avoiding Financial Stress During the Holidays

This time of the year many of us face financial stress. The holidays can be expensive and fees for the winter semester are due soon. As students, most of us do not have unlimited funds and it is important to try and not rack up additional debt. There are lots ways to save money around the holiday. Here are a few:

  • Give yourself a spending limit – Figure out how much money you have to spend on the holidays. Don’t forget to including any additional costs you may face. Set an amount to spend on presents for each person on your list. Only donate what you can to charities, or even set a specific amount for this too.
  • Keep track of your spending and store all receipts – Your budget does no good if you don’t track your spending. A spreadsheet is an excellent way to keep track of where you have spent your money. By keeping receipts you are able to return things if you need to rearrange your budget. Having your receipts organized also becomes handy in case the sweater you give your dad doesn’t fit and he needs an exchange.
  • Cut back on extras/treating yourself – The little things add up. Avoid buying a coffee every morning and put that cute black dress back on the rack. If you are strapped for money, buying yourself gifts isn’t the best idea.
  • Try cheaper traditions – Holiday traditions don’t need to be expensive. Trying watching a favourite movie or building a snowman with your family. Going tobogganing is always fun too. Make cards and crafts with your friends, or have a baking party. If you love to sing, find a group to go caroling with. There are lots of fun activities you can do around the holidays which won’t break the bank.
  • Have a potluck – A great way to get your friends and family together is hosting a potluck. Ask each guest to bring one dish. You can enjoy some delicious food with great company.
  • Look out for sales – There are always sales going on. Keep an eye out for these when shopping for gifts and food for holiday events.
  • Start shopping early – There are lots of gifts you can buy all year long, so start shopping as soon as you can. This will also make your life a lot easier as you can avoid the jam packed malls.
  • Save money throughout the year – If you know you will be struggling to pay for everything during the holidays, put away a small amount each month in order to prepare.
  • Reuse wrapping – Bags, boxes, ribbons, and bows can all be reused for wrapping presents. These items can also be bought on sale after the holidays and found at the dollar store.
  • Know when to stop buying – You don’t need to buy everyone everything on their wish list. Most people would be content with a simple “Happy Holidays” or card. Getting gifts for people always feels great, but make sure you don’t go overboard.
  • Pay for things on debt or with cash – The best way to avoid debt is to put your credit card away.

Hopefully these tips help to reduce financial stress from the holidays. Remember to enjoy time spent with your loved ones and have fun.

Happy Holidays!