Transition

It has been almost two weeks since I completed my last official day at UOIT and I’d have to say that I am now feeling much more positive about being ‘done’ than before.

So what changed? Well, quite few things, actually…

  1. I know that I am not the first, nor the last graduate to experience intense emotions upon completion of a program. Knowing that I am not alone in my sadness and struggle really gives me a new perspective about my future (even if it is still very much uncertain) and I can lean on the knowledge that others have successfully traversed this milestone too. This new understanding I’ve acquired also highlights that transition is a part of life and that it is inevitable, but the key is to be prepared when changes do occur or at least as prepared as possible.

  2. Strategically, I was probably more prepared for this upcoming change than most, as I recognized and others that support me did too, that my system is wired uniquely and very sensitive to change (even good change) so I was mentally preparing all along. In my last post, I discussed being a resilient person and being prepared is one aspect that really helped me transition away from the predictable routine of university life. Last week was tough, but what helped sustain my mental health was pre-planning a schedule of structured activities and places to be all week. I have enough personal insight to understand what my system needed, and so I spent last week volunteering at this very special place called, Nova’s Ark. I knew that moving back to London (Ontario) so abruptly after finishing my program would be way more than I could handle, so I decided to stay local, continue living where I was and to move the following week. Being at Nova’s Ark was such a blessing to me and it was a safe place to grieve being ‘done’. Saying ‘goodbye’ to everything all at once is too harsh of a transition and so, this week allowed me to slowly disengage from my life in Oshawa and to prepare myself to leave.

  3. I previously mentioned feeling grief and joy simultaneously upon completing my degree and I deeply experienced that last week… mostly grief, however. I cried so much in one week and at times it felt so unbearable, but I believe it was a healthy therapeutic exercise to endure, as I’m definitely not as teary-eyed this week and feel that I am coping much better. During moments of sadness last week, I wasn’t very able to articulate my feelings and emotions, but I know that I was encouraged to cry and told that it was ultimately a good process to experience.

  4. As I was packing up my belongings last Friday, I was still crying at moments and it was painful to dismantle the place I called ‘home’, but once everything was packed away in the car… I felt much better! Upon further reflection, my thinking is this: I strive for routine and familiarity; I need it to feel safe and secure, but once the appearance of my room changed, I no longer wanted to be a part of it (it was unfamiliar) and therefore looked to London as being most familiar at the moment and this shifted my focus. It was like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders and all the sudden I felt positive about the transition.

Now that I am back in London, I realize that it is my responsibility to build a life here and I need to invest my time towards endeavors that are positive and challenging, just like I did while I was a student at UOIT. Although my first week back in London has had its ups and downs, I feel that I am going to be okay because I know that the grass isn’t always greener on the other side, but…

grass is greener

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14 thoughts on “Transition

  1. Glad to hear you’re doing good….focus on the future, see the bigger picture because you’ve worked so hard for it! You can do it!

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  2. KStar21, how is your transition going? I graduated this year too. I’m getting scared a bit. No interviews or any interest to hire me. I’m working at my uncle’s office feeling useless. I miss my counsellor. Things seemed easier after we met. They should continue seeing us as our problems do not stop once we graduate . They seem more and worse. Good luck.

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    • Hi GrishaC,
      My transition is going better than it was, especially since I’ve plugged into resources locally. I was fortunate to find a job in my field for the fall and that has certainly helped to ease the burden of change. Prior to getting a job, I was feeling a little lost too, but the more I invest in building a life in the present, I’m less likely to mourn the past. I hope you’ll find something soon, but lower your expectations about jobs and then you won’t feel so disappointed; I do that with movies and it works! lol. Seek out counsellors in your community and I’m sure you’ll feel much better. Press on, my friend… It’s the only way to live!

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      • Thanks KStar21, I’m happy for you. I can’t find a counsellor here, I’ll try calling uoit to get some appointments there. How did you transfer your treatment?

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        • I just called around to community agencies that offered counselling (not connected to university in any way). Look in the yellow pages etc. unless you live in the middle of nowhere, I’d be surprised that you can’t find a place that offers counselling

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  3. KStar21 – did you transfer to a free counselling? If so, how? Im in Guelph and cant find any free services here, for a fee only. I need Marose. I felt well taken care of @ uoit and lost now

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    • Moving on is scary, for sure. It becomes less scary the better you plan for it or at least anticipating what next steps you must take… at least in my experience. Even though the big changes didn’t come as a surprise, I was still distraught and grieved being ‘done’ my career as a student. It’s much easier to keep the status quo…it is predictable and comforting, however, looking back, I’ve rarely regretted the positive effects of big transitions because I always learn something more about myself and how brave I can be.

      Letting go is one of the hardest things that life demands, but trust that you’ll make it through to the next phase of your life, bringing with you skills and coping strategies you’ve learned along the way. I work hard (almost) every day to ensure that the lessons I’ve learned at UOIT will never be forgotten and I will forever treasure the good memories I’ve made thus far.
      Good luck in your last term!

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